Wednesday, December 21, 2011


Dear today...

i spent all of you pretending i'm ok when i'm not
pretending i'm happy when i'm not
pretending about everything to everyone


to whom i wish to speculate?
dont let the answer says tears no more....

i'm too exhausted....
too afraid...

Monday, December 19, 2011


why does it feels like i refuse to believe anyone today?
does something bleeding inside me?

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

girls never hav the guts...

being guilty.....
why does it feels like killing
own desire to smile
in the crowded of clown
how suffocating
to her self

but i'm sorry
final decision means no turning back
pray for miracle
if the wishes still need to be grab
but never believe cause
miracle have their own reasons
to be called miracle

feeling of guilty
feeling of sorry
for the purpose of my own freedom
this time..there's heart
need to be hurt

no worries
it'll heal
through the whisper of your own regretting
cause learning is a way better than forgetting

p/s : a lil light will do...dear friend.. we are still friend..arent we?

Thursday, December 1, 2011

i can see it now..the monster,when i talk to the mirror..the ghost,

i have done it again
taken truth out of context
taken lies out of you
replaced settling dust with
some white lies which sound dark now

what am i asking for
from emptiness
and do all lonely roads
lead to gain
does wordless music
really fill you with thought?
and does writing show you
faces on papers?

all rhythms come from
the original heartbeat
i'm sorry this is the reality
you need to notice
this is not new
this is of the beginning