pretending

Dear today...

i spent all of you pretending i'm ok when i'm not
pretending i'm happy when i'm not
pretending about everything to everyone

and

to whom i wish to speculate?
dont let the answer says tears no more....

i'm too exhausted....
too afraid...

empty

why does it feels like i refuse to believe anyone today?
does something bleeding inside me?

girls never hav the guts...

being guilty.....

why does it feels like killing

own desire to smile

in the crowded of clown

how suffocating

annoying

to her self

but i'm sorry

final decision means no turning back

pray for miracle

if the wishes still need to be grab

but never believe cause

miracle have their own reasons

to be called miracle

feeling of guilty

feeling of sorry

for the purpose of my own freedom

this time..there's heart

need to be hurt

no worries

it'll heal

through the whisper of your own regretting

cause learning is a way better than forgetting

p/s : a lil light will do...dear friend.. we are still friend..arent we?

i can see it now..the monster,when i talk to the mirror..the ghost,

Help

i have done it again

taken truth out of context

taken lies out of you

replaced settling dust with

some white lies which sound dark now

what am i asking for

from emptiness

and do all lonely roads

lead to gain

does wordless music

really fill you with thought?

and does writing show you

faces on papers?

all rhythms come from

the original heartbeat

i'm sorry this is the reality

you need to notice

this is not new

this is of the beginning

Just let it go

so tired of the lullaby of 'i love you' every single night

when will you realize that being you

is all you have to be?

you are nothing yet

barely nothing with only dreams cuddling you

take you deeply to another dreams

day by day

stop being to comfortable

in the dark where secrets are kept

where you'r among fools

smiling happily saying 'loneliness is nothing'

(p/s: be happy! happy people attract good things! =))

My Little Wall Diary

Dear readers...this is just a little something about myself....

i'm Fara...u can just call me Fara (no options..HAHA)

Typical girl would say such word like..."i'm just an ordinary girl"..but i'm SURELY not typical.

I'm a SUPERGIRL from the day i was born until the day i wrote this thing...:PP hehe

I love my family the most and could die without friends....

A full time student plus a part time food hunters!

I do fight with dragons and my mom sometimes...:D

I believed that happy girls are the prettiest girls

The night feels safer everytimes i hug my teddy tightly.

I'm good in laughing and better with crying.

Mom always said i'm clumsy and i never denied it. (i lose my glasses 18times a day and bumped with almost everything around me.perhaps collecting scars can be my part time jobs..T-T)

Love music and ignores songs that sound like monkeys.

Can i make it fullstop without any ending word? yes i can. cause this is my blog and you'r just the reader in this drama. HAHA.

"YOU DON'T LOVE SOMEONE FOR THEIR LOOKS,OR THEIR CLOTHES,OR FOR THEIR FANCY CAR,BUT BECAUSE THEY SING A SONG ONLY YOU CAN HEAR" _Oscar Wilde_

(noted: looking at myself though this photo...make me wish to turn back the times..when i was just a little girl who doesn't even need to worry about my looks...my skin tone..my dry lips...i just happily to be me...a small eyed girl with her big happy families..)